Hold the Line
you will guide me
but too often in the wrong direction
still I blindly welcome you around
always in the same fight
it never changes, (we’re) both always right
clouding my mind, we will never be the same
can you please just hold?
with your dancing spirit
I’ve never been a dancer myself
that’s why it fits so neatly around my shell
I could never let go
or even act as if I could
it would be too empty
’cause you’ve always been around
so if you could, can you please just
Hold the line?
I swear I won’t ask more of you
Now hold the line
Don’t let go until we’re through
Now hold the line
I swear I won’t ask more of you
Now hold the line
there may never be another time
I love you dearly
but I think it’s gone too far and I can
now see clearly where it started to fall apart
I never knew you meant it
when you said you’d do whatever it takes to conquer the world
’cause that’s not how it works
Hold the line
I swear I won’t ask more of you
Now hold the line
Don’t let go until we’re through
Now hold the line
I swear I won’t ask more of you
Now hold the line
there may never be another time
Hold the line
I swear I won’t ask more of you
Now hold the line
Don’t let go until we’re through
Now hold the line
I swear I won’t ask more of you
Now please hold the line
there may never be another time
The Devil I Love
This day has been long and it’s all been a mess
I can not wait ’til I can get out of it
I close the door and I turn the key
Open a bottle of fake reality
It’s getting harder
I can feel it now
‘Cause I’m further away
And if the saints come tonight
How am I supposed to know where you are?
I’m with the devil I love
How am I supposed to know where you are?
How am I supposed to care where you are?
Tonight
This life has been long but I still don’t get it
I’m a speck of dust with a heavy heart
Forming thoughts that keep me spinning
On a never ending quest looking for love
I can see it
It’s getting harder now
To flee
Running further away
It’s getting harder
I can’t feel it now
Just take it all away
And if the saints come tonight
How am I supposed to know where you are?
I’m with the devil I love
How am I supposed to know where you are?
How am I supposed to care where you are?
I’m still having the same reaction
To the blunt force (trauma) you hit me with
After all I’ve done to remedy it
Never felt it’s gone so great
If the saints come tonight
How am I supposed to know where you are?
And if the saints come tonight
How am I supposed to know where you are?
I’m with the devil I love
How am I supposed to know where you are?
How am I supposed to know where you are?
I’m with the devil I love
How am I supposed to know where you are?
How am I supposed to get to where you are?
Failed Prodigy
I gave up trying to figure out where my head is at all the time
it’s ever non-present
dreaming my way around
the lens I view my life through
now covered in dust
the future looks blurrier than it did last century
but it’s ok and it’s alright
it’s just not how I pictured it
but everything is just the way I made it to be
I am just a boy I live my life
always on the edge but I survive
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
still playing my part
I am just a boy I live my life
according to my needs and my desires
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
still playing my part
sometimes in jealousy
I think I’m better than
but it’s short lived mania and I remember again
what’s hunting me, what I don’t have
I sacrificed for mental health
and all that really matters are the people I love
I am just a boy I live my life
always on the edge but I survive
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
still playing my part
I am just a boy I live my life
according to my needs and my desires
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
still playing my part
I’ve always searched for something
but never searched for what I’ve become
I am just a boy I live my life
always on the edge but I survive
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
still playing my part
I am just a boy I live my life
according to my needs and my desires
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
still playing from my heart
oh I am just a boy
always on the edge but I survive
taking what I can
using what I’ve got
Heavy Heart
there’s no stopping on the way to death
no shortcut to a different path
there were signs but through my neglect
I’m still stuck here in the same old track
I can’t wait ’til I level up
when my thoughts disappear
with this fear of feeling
I know you’re out there and I’m falling apart
still searching with my heavy heart
I’ll find you somewhere
it will cause me to lose myself
I’ll find you someway
it will cost me what I don’t have
and take me so far away
one step further from the fear of life
it’s the fault in me I must confess
I’ve been the outcome of my own mess
and all the needs and wants that I possess
have I still not leveled up?
no you’re still insecure and afraid of failing
I can’t make it all the way to the top
and my feet hurt from this heavy heart
I’ll find you somewhere
it will cause me to lose myself
I’ll find you someway
it will cost me what I don’t have
I’ll find you somewhere
it will cause me to lose myself
I’ll find you someway
it will cost me what I don’t have
and take me so far away
there’s no stopping on the way to death
with the path in front of me
every day still put to the test
but I’m not derailing
won’t stop feeling
I’ll find you somewhere
it will cause me to lose myself
I’ll find you someway
it will take me so far away
I’ll find you somewhere
it will cause me to lose myself
I’ll find you someway
it will cost me what I don’t have
I’ll find you somewhere
it will cause me to lose myself
I’ll find you someway
it will take me so far away
some things can never change
but this heavy heart can’t stay this way
some things you never escape
but this heavy heart can’t stay this way
this heavy heart can’t stay this way
this heavy heart can’t stay the same
Tasteless
I haven’t got much time
’cause the time keeps speeding up
and that has got me thinking about my health
Checking on my pulse
’cause the smoke from cigarettes
and alcohol poisoning are known to kill.
Livers don’t agree
but I still take a sip of the bottle
’cause I love the taste of the glass
I haven’t got much time
but the time has got me by the throat
but now I’m starting to handle it
You can tear me apart and maybe you will see
how tasteless you are compared to me
I don’t own a wallet to keep my money
but I never get any so that’s ok
I only think about sex, music and death
the rest just seams so meaningless
Drive my kid to school and I crank up death metal
only to keep the other parents away
I haven’t got the time ’cause I overslept
I stayed up all night in a fantasy
You can tear me apart and maybe you will see
how tasteless you are compared to me.
Smash your face against the mirror and watch it bleed
just another boring selfie in your feed.
Put your finger up your ass and rub it on your teeth
and see how tasteless you are compared to me.
Feel Like Changing
I’ve been away for a couple of thousand days
leading my own life away from the rain
rolling along the bottom
never look back, nothing but ghosts out there
angels in front, but I do not see them yet
closing my eyes, pretend that I’m fine
how could you forget what you should be fighting for
’cause now it feels like I’m the same
and you’re all moving on
just like time has stopped and I’m never getting out
I feel like changing
I pick myself up, pat me on the shoulder now
don’t blame yourself but you’re getting older now
don’t lose your grip, don’t be a martyr
think of the child who blasted “youth gone wild”
what would he think of you hiding in your mind?
don’t let a drink come between you again
how could you forget what you should be fighting for?
now it feels like I’m the same and you’re all moving on
just like time has stopped and I’m never getting out
how it hurts that nothing’s changed
while you’re all moving on
I feel like changing
moving forward
moving forward
moving forward
moving forward
now it feels like I’m the same while you’re all moving on
just like time has stopped and I’m never getting out
how it hurts that nothing’s changed
but you’re all moving on
I feel like changing
Life Order
don’t know what comes tomorrow
what surprises I’ll face
I do not easily follow
I don’t compete in the race
and I take all my feelings
I shove or sing them away
so I can keep my head up
get through the day
but I find peace inside
sometimes when I am hurting
and after all this time
I’m glad I’m learning still
I haven’t found a way to fix myself
but maybe that’s ok
I’ll have my life in order
when it’s all over
I’m having trouble sleeping
from my anxiety and thoughts
I can not stop the thinking
but sometimes it helps to drink
’til I pass out
I find peace inside
sometimes when I am hurting
and after all this time
I’m glad I’m learning still
haven’t found a way to fix myself
and maybe that’s ok
I’ll have my life in order
when it’s all over
I haven’t found a way to fix myself
and maybe that’s ok
I’ll have my life in order
when it’s all over
all of my
all of my memories
I don’t know if they’re dreams or real
all of my
all of my memories
all of my
all of my memories
I don’t know if they’re dreams or real
all of my
all of my memories
I haven’t found a way to fix myself
and maybe that’s ok
I’ll have my life in order
when it’s all over
I haven’t found a way to deal with myself
or anything else
I’ll have my life in order
when it’s all over
Maybe I Do
knowing myself is like a thorn in my eye
it’s not that i can see it but it ruins everything
the reign of the moon
and the love from the sunshine
that should be enough to keep my sad face smiling
I need to know
what happens if I let my feelings show
all of my thoughts that keep me up at night
well here’s a start
maybe I do
push everyone away
if they’re getting through
maybe I do
keep changing paths
so my dreams will not come true
I need life to come to an end
knowing it does
somehow makes it easier to love
you know what they say
when there’s nothing left to hide
that’s the closest thing you’ll get
to freedom in this life
knowing myself, I’m always on the run
if not from myself
then from the things that I have done
holding you close
as I slip away into the unknown
the whole world implodes
as I’m slipping away
but now you know
maybe I do
let demons in because I like the abuse
maybe I do
wish for the whole world to be ending soon
’cause I need life to come to an end
knowing it does
somehow makes it easier to love
maybe I do
things for myself because I know that I’m true
maybe I do
feel sorry for myself because I do
still need life to come to an end
knowing it does
somehow makes it easier
Tears for a rainy Day
there’s no use in denying
this movie moves my heart
we were so young back then
so innocent and loved
I almost feel like crying
(like there’s) something wrong with my throat
I can’t swallow and I can’t speak now
but I’m having a hard time letting go
I’ll keep these tears for a rainy day
I will never find another way
but to keep these tears for a rainy day
so no-one ever knows
that I fall
no-one ever knows
that I fall
like everybody does
what’s the meaning of this ever changing life?
must it be so unstable all the fucking time?
I’m close to breaking
but there’s something wrong with my mind
I can’t remember
I can’t think now
I’m having a hard time letting go
I’ll keep these tears for a rainy day
I will never find another way
but to keep these tears for a rainy day
so no-one ever knows
that I fall
no-one ever knows
that I fall
no-one ever sees
as I fall
I’ll keep these tears for a rainy day
I will never find another way
but to keep these tears for a rainy day
so no-one ever knows
that I fall
no-one ever knows
that I fall
no-one ever sees
as I fall
no-one ever knows
as I fall
like everybody does
Headphones
hello, hello
what’s your face again?
so long, so long
I don’t hear you anymore
never felt as good
shut your noises out
I’m inside
everything is fine
and you will hear
you will hear me scream
I get lost in the waves
can’t control it
and then I’m not the same
you don’t know me
fuck all of you
now that I’m in my zone
every word is true
this world is my own
never felt as good
muting all of you
I’m inside
everything is fine
and you will hear
you will hear
you will hear me scream
I get lost in the waves
can’t control it
and then I’m not the same
you don’t know me
and further I go
further I go now
further in the waves
can’t control it
I get lost in the waves
can’t control myself
and then I’m not the same
you don’t know me
and the problems are just not there
and I am not the same
you don’t know me
Frá Sólu
fæ ég það sem að ég gef?
draumaský, fast inní mér
ég veit að ég má ekki týnast
þó að ég sé áttavilltur
allt nema að reyna finna leiðina út
þú sýndir mér hvað ég var
bjarvættur en fastur í stað
ég veit að ég má ekki eyðileggjast
þó að ég sé ónýtur smá
allt nema að finna leiðina út
frá sólu kemur þú
frá sólu kemur þú og lýsir upp
(frá) sólu kemur þú
frá sólu kemur þú og lýsir upp
nú fundinn er strákurinn sá
sem forðaðist allt
sem skar í hann sár
úr því hann er myrkri vanur
getur hann haldist ljósleiðinni á?
eða reyni ég að finna leiðina út?
frá sólu kemur þú
frá sólu kemur þú og lýsir upp
(frá) sólu kemur þú
frá sólu kemur þú og lýsir upp
Ragnar Zolberg 