The Hermit

…But I’m not Afraid of Anything

thoughts in the woods, an animal
you don’t know me yet

I’m crawling on with the man
you don’t notice it
just another storm in the hall
you would die for it
just another beast, an animal
just get rid of it
love comes, a saviour
you seem so sure of it
love comes, a prayer
and I’m not afraid of it

looking at myself in the water
you don’t know me yet

had me standing on my feet
seemed so sure of it
but being up like this might get me down
you don’t give a damn
being up like this might get me lost
but I’m not afraid of it

I Don’t Like People

carry me to the forest and trees
where nobody runs and nobody speaks

I enjoy much more through silence than through words
so carry me to the forest and trees

’cause I don’t like people anyway
I don’t like people anyway
we feel so mighty but we don’t even know what we are
it doesn’t make much sense at all

when I go to the graveyard and bones
to see what remains from all the dead ones
I see that all who came before me
except my lovely mother
are just a bunch of names and dates on them stones

well I don’t like people anyway
I don’t like people anyway
we feel so mighty but we don’t even know what we are
it doesn’t make much sense

no matter what they say
I’ll never fit in anyway
the only way I know
is to hold my head above the water
alone
(I don’t want to be alone despite the way I feel
I can not let go
I was brought up among people
and I think when it’s time for me to go
then I should have someone to hold me as I die)

I don’t like people anyway
I don’t like people anyway
we feel so mighty but we don’t even know what we are
it doesn’t make much sense

Obstacles

holding hands and walking through
trees and leaves and trees
you know how much I love it here?
I ask with my favourite voice

after the first step
look around
if everything is safe
then maybe take a couple more

but it don’t come easy
we all deal with obstacles
learn to live with
errors of our thoughts
it don’t come easy
we all deal with obstacles
but I ain’t trying
to be someone that I’m not

breathing flower in the soil
my roots are planted deep
you know once I nearly killed myself
but I’ve put that killer to sleep

when I hold you
I feel secure
then you hold me back
and I  feel like there is nothing more

but it don’t come easy
we all deal with obstacles
learn to live with
errors of our thoughts
it don’t come easy
we all deal with obstacles
but I ain’t trying
to be someone that I’m not

Born in the Dark

born in the dark, with black hair and a mark
supposed to bring me luck

obsessed with the color of a blood covered skin
obsessed with the sex I was put together in
music stole my heart and the mind was already fucked
music from the start ’till my heart bleeds the final drop
poison was alluring from the first sip of it
but now I’m yearning, knee-deep in all this shit

never meant to become a man
but you saw one in me still
see I’m more Peter Pan or Mowgli
but sick, troubled, ill
never meant to become a man
by standards I’m not even close
but I’m far better now, with you
I’m manning up as the beard grows
for every two times I’ve stepped up
I’ve fucked up once but that’s what I get
ever since that night at the bar
it’s hard to regret
but I’m still obsessed with the color of a thick-blood-covered skin
still obsessed with sex, but the one that you and I are in
I knew very soon there was no escaping from this fate
and I had never wanted this badly to f… to get laid
I knew from the minute we kissed that you would be mine
now we’re married, we got kids
what a wonderful time

I love all your marks, you’ve got something in your eye…
we’re both fucked and borderline but it’s not a waste of time…
I love all your marks, I love the scars on your thighs
-now say you’ll come to me lets celebrate with wine
we’re both fucked and borderline but it’s not a waste of time
-this screen is not enough I need you by my side
I love all your witchery, I love it when you lie
-please say you’ll come to me lets celebrate with wine
we’re both fucked and borderline but it’s not a waste of time
-music is not enough I need you by my side
I love your misery, I love it when you cry
-music is not enough I need you by my side
I love your purity, I wish you’d never die
-music is not enough I need you by my side

The Stone Opens

cold and alone
I watch the shadow that I cast
upon the stone
and suddenly one more appears
I feel myself being touched so gently
I’ve been warned by this so many times before
but she appeals to my weakest side
should I lay down and taste her flesh and all?

Labia’s Kiss

tears on my lips
sand in my eyes
I watch honey drip down the thighs
nymphs and elves with haunting eyes
orgies in the night
it’s hard to stand still and control my mind

I get this feeling again
I run but I can’t get anywhere
it’s just this feeling that I get
I run but I can’t get anywhere

with runes on my arms for protection’s sake
chain on my arms to avoid mistakes
perfection is about the flaws
tears come running down
I hear laughter and moaning
I like it

I get this feeling again
I run but I can’t get anywhere
it’s just this feeling that I get
I run but I can’t get anywhere

so, who is gonna save me now?
oh well, maybe it’s not that bad after all

Dreamcatcher

alone I sought you
sought your shiny lies
I will always be a part of you
like I am with the night

now I know
how far it was from us
now I know that…

dreams will never be as the life

The Hermit

my own eyes
tired from what they’ve seen
trying to tear a way back home to you
all my needs
darker than my shadow
down it leads
dragging my soul after my knees

my own mind
it has turned against me
meaningless
man is only good at making a mess
radicate in the cosmos
release me from the price of age
free the soul
split the skull
open the cage

do not heed, I must leave



A Murder of Ravens

let the reasons out
it’s the only way I can ever feel
get deeper in
it’s the only place I am a little safe

swarming among ravens
I feel so good that I could think of dying
but the rest is up to you
you said you wanted to
leave me in the summer
to never rest again

Nemesis

where I’m from
from where I come
lies a stone
just like my fathers
and that’s where my heart sleeps
my heart roams
for the taking
all for you

there’s a lake
where I bathe
there’s the grass where I dry up
as I lay and watch the sky
watch the clouds
as they roll by over to you

how am I supposed to run
when nemesis
follows me wherever I go
waiting for you to come

there’s a place
where I come from
there lies a stone
just like my fathers
and that’s where my soul sleeps
my soul roams for the taking
for you
and if you come
please just come
but please be gentle
don’t just grab me from there
oh be gentle
take me slowly
’cause I love it there
I love it there

how am I supposed to run
when nemesis
follows me wherever I go
waiting for you to come

With Mother

alas the day has come
brings perspective on the stains
alas the dirt in my mouth
I dare not speak
as if possessed
devoured all I could…everything
and now looking back
I should have stayed a boy
stayed with mother
stay with mother

life, take me over
but save my heart

been lying still so long with spiders on my back
the flies do their best they slowly cleanse my skin
the wind makes way
but we can’t be saved from being beaten down
the ocean is cool but I’d rather stay on shore
stay with mother

life, take me over
but save my heart
life, please let this be over
and save me from my thoughts
life, carry me over
save me from these ghosts